Is It All A Lie?

I struggle every day. I don’t fit in this world.

I watch people to see how they function and interact but no matter how hard I try I can’t be like them. It might be easy to fake it at first but as time goes on I don’t have what they have.

They try to teach me but I can’t be something I’m not. How do you live in a world that can’t accept you for who you are?

I have been forced into survival mode and I can’t leave it. It’s all I know; it’s all I have. They don’t understand unless they’ve been there.

Growing up I was taught that it’s a sin to lie. So isn’t it a sin to fake your existence in a world you don’t belong in?

It’s hard to live with yourself day after day after day when you feel like it’s all a lie.