I don't know where I am today. I haven't dissociated this bad in long time. By the way, half of those words had that cool little red squiggly line under them because I can't even manage to spell. And some more red lines. Hopefully I picked the right words.
Not seeing my T is real bad...she helps me stay grounded. 6 1/2 weeks with not seeing her has not been good. More red lines as I write. I hope this makes sense.
I tried to drive home from work today - it usually takes me about 10 minutes. Well...today it took me over an hour because I kept getting lost. I couldn't remember where my house was. By the time I got home I felt very awkward in my body and I kept falling over and tripping as I walked through my house. My dad asked me if I was drunk.
I've never had the experience of being drunk, but I imagine it feels a little like this.
I tried all the grounding things that usually work at least a little for me but nothing really stuck. I hope I can function tomorrow.
Nothing is processing. I hope this makes sense.
If not, I may delete it in the future.
Lots and lots of red lines I must fix...