(This blog post was supposed to be for Thursday, but Blogger was having issues)
I've always had to be strong.
I feel like I never had the choice to be anything other than strong.
I couldn't cry. I couldn't show that I was in pain.
I couldn't show that I was weak.
I couldn't write about it or talk about it.
Instead, I created people inside of me to carry the burden of always being strong.
Today, I felt as if I couldn't be strong anymore.
I found myself wanting someone to take care of me - someone to protect me so I didn't have to be so strong.
But there is no one. I sat in my car, driving around aimlessly, and crying my soul out.
I cried until I couldn't feel anything but numbness.
And now I build up my wall, stronger than ever, so tomorrow I can be strong again.
Never shall I ever show anything but strength. Because without this, I would break...
*Bee
I know how you feel. I've been very ill recently and have missed many days of work. I've always had to be strong and tho my coworkers knew I was sick, no one called to check on me. They always call each other - I even check up on them. They say they don't worry about me because i can take care of myself. I feel so alone. I'm sorry, Bee, that you feel that way, too.
ReplyDeleteWow....that is profound! I can relate.
ReplyDeleteLothlorien
Bee,
ReplyDeleteThis captures everything so perfectly. Your an inspiration and I am so thankful for you.