I am so sick of this...so so so so so so sick of this.
My T had turned a full 180 degrees - she was returning my calls and emails, she went out of her way to check on me, our sessions were going great, my alters were happy, hell, I was happy! I stuck with my T because I thought she had finally realized what she was doing to me.
I was so wrong.
Why can't my T keep an appointment? Is it really that hard?!?! I mean, come on, seriously?!
I'm literally hanging by a thread, barely keeping it together. I've been going running every day just to feel something and I'm under strict doctors orders not to exercise.
Damn it, I can't keep doing this.
And my T wonders why I have trust issues. Gee, I wonder why?! Maybe if you kept our Goddamn appointments I could actually start making some progress!
We were supposed to meet earlier this week, she called to reschedule an hour before I was supposed to see her. We were supposed to meet tomorrow (Thursday) and she just called me to reschedule AGAIN. How much do you wanna bet that she's going to call again tomorrow to "reschedule"???
Goodbye T, I am SO done.
*Bee
I haven't had a trusted therapist be so unreliable towards me, but I have had a mental health professional be so irresponsible in his behavior toward my care. I was scared to leave him, but I was even more scared to stay with him and not get the attention and help I deserve.
ReplyDeleteIt hasn't been easy finding a replacement for him, but I deserve better, and so do you. I'm hoping that however the situation turns out, it will be resolved to your satisfaction.
And take care of yourself while running. Please listen to your doctors. Running is physically, mentally, and emotionally demanding. Try to find other ways to feel something other than exercise which can also harm our health. Just saying out of concern.
Sending safe hugs if you'll have them.
(((Bee)))
ReplyDeleteI understand and i'm so sorry for the pain your therapist is causing ALL of you.
G.
Hopefully, you will find a better T. Gosh, I'd totally freak if my T did that, I'm sorry, Bee.
ReplyDeleteBee,
ReplyDeleteThinking of you dear. I am so sorry. Will you let me know if you want to talk about my therapist. I have had a 15year plus relationship and have trusted him enough to take each of my 4 children to see him from time to time throughout the years.
I would love to meet somewhere and just talk if you had time.
xoxo,
Vicki
MIS- Thank you for your comments. I just hope this all turns out okay...it's very hard for me to make this decision to not see my T anymore, but it's even harder for me to keep on seeing her.
ReplyDeleteGrace- Thank you for the hug and your comment. It's nice to know that someone else understands.
Ivory- I don't know how I've managed to go this long without freaking out on my T or at someone else...I hope no one else has to go through something like this.
Vicki- Thank you. I would love to meet with you. I'm pretty free most of the time. Email me (thebeehive27@hotmail.com) and we can set something up.