For those of you who have been following my blog, you know that lately I've been having a really hard time with my T - she's cancelled on me, stood me up, promised things she didn't keep, etc, etc, etc.
Recently I have had a lot of missing time, and by recently I mean over the past 5 or 6 months. I've tried to talk to my T about it but I have felt like I cannot even come close to conveying what it is like to lose time.
Every session my T tries to tell me that "she understands" or "knows what it feels like". Damn it, I know she doesn't understand! Why can't she just admit that?!?!
Today, I received an email from my T...
"Bee,
I'm sorry you are feeling frustrated. I have no idea how it is to have so much time pass and not know what happened. Write down the questions you have so when we meet next week, I can try to answer them.
T"
I was so shocked that she had admitted this to me - in all of the 6 years she has been my T, not once has she admitted this.
My reply was, "Thank you for acknowledging that you don't know what it's like. That means a lot."
*Bee
It's seems she also has no idea how it feels to have so much time pass without any contact from her.
ReplyDeleteCandycan - Wow, you couldn't have said it any better! In the words of Brian Regan, "How true that is!"
ReplyDelete*Bee
Bee,
ReplyDeleteI have missed you. I am so sorry you are having such a hard time. I too am glad that your T was finally able to give you what you need. I hope you are taking care of yourself.
You are loved.
Vicki
I always wonder if my T suffers from and ED or BPD... just so I know if they know what it's like...
ReplyDeletei think I'm actually going to ask my T tomorrow at our appointment.
I'm glad your T finally admitted that she didn't get it!
xoxo
-Lisa
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