Sunday, January 23, 2011

I'm Still Here, Somewhere...

My last post was written in anger, but this post will be written with the strength that I have received from the people around me this week.

This past week was the hardest week of my life. On Friday morning, I was wishing I had never been born.

I have lost almost 20 lbs in the past week and a half. Not good...

I haven't been able to eat or sleep. My stress and anxiety have been through the roof.

I did find out, however, that the raised anxiety and stress levels are from the new meds I was given. Thankfully I went off of them on Wednesday and they are slowly making their way out of my system.

I have had the honor to get to know a person over the past few months. Even though we've never met in person, I consider this person to be a very dear friend of mine. She has been so great these past few days during a time that I needed a friend the most. I want to thank her for being such a great person and for being there for me.

I wish I could write more but there is just too much. I am still struggling but I can now see a light at the end of this dark, long, and difficult tunnel.

This week will be good. This week I am going to make sure it is a good week.

Thank you to all who have left comments, who have emailed me, and texted me over this past week. It has helped so much.



  1. Thank goodness for new weeks and new starts! And I'm really glad you figured out the meds were creating so much trouble--that's not always easy to know. Have a great week!

  2. I am glad that you are beginning to feel better, and that you found a new close friend.

  3. Hope your new week was better!

  4. I have had meds do that to me, but I got off of them within a half a week. Darn near drove me over the wall. Man, losing that much in a week is so dangerous. I am SO glad that you have had people around you to give you strength. Support is SO important.