***Possibly Triggering***Possibly Triggering***
Eating is like a punishment.
Abuse I get at least three times a day.
No matter what I eat, it hurts like hell. I'm literally putting myself through hell because I have to eat to live.
I'm doing all I can to not be in so much pain but it doesn't matter. It always hurts like hell. I'm always sick. I'm always in pain. I'm always fighting this losing battle.
And when I don't eat, I finally start to feel better but then my body thinks I'm starving myself and it ends up making it worse when I do start eating again.
I can't handle this anymore.
It's too much!
It hurts too much....