Tuesday, May 18, 2010

Dissociating Like Mad

I am beyond exhausted today - I was falling asleep at my desk this morning for the first 3 to 4 hours. I have had so many things trigger memories for me today that I am mentally and emotionally exhausted as well. I'm surprised I haven't started crying yet.

I really want to see my T. Things are getting so much worse for me right now and the dissociating is getting so bad that not only do I not remember most things, but my splits aren't able to remember much either - which means they are dissociating as well. Great...

Going running in the mornings doesn't seem to help me like it used to, but I'm not going to stop. I'm hoping that eventually it will start to help all of us clear our mind and become more in tune with one another.

I'm too foggy/dissociated right now to write anymore.


  1. I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Can you have a meeting with everyone inside? Can you tell who/what is causing this?

    I hope you feel calmer and grounded soon. Try chocolate. Or a cinnamon bun. Or both.


  2. Sounds like my weekend. Sorry love. Hope it gets better soon. Stay safe.