Thursday, May 13, 2010

Work + No Sleep = Not Good

I wanted to give a little update on my ex-best friend Rae from my post a couple of days ago. We have talked every single day since then and things seem to be getting less awkward. I actually ended up running into her at Walmart TWICE on Saturday afternoon, so that was weird. I still don't know when we are going to have the big conversation, but I'm fine with putting it off for a little while longer.

Today has been really tough for me. I'm not sleeping so I am beyond exhausted. I was so tired today at work that I kept forgetting where I was, and then I would have to figure out what I was in the middle of doing. It was like before I was diagnosed with DID and having to constantly figure out my life (not that it is any different now with the diagnosis, but still...).

And some girls at work today were making fun of a lady who kept calling the office. She gave them five different names so the girls were saying she had multiple personalities. They then proceeded to make fun of her by imitating her and cracking rude jokes. I wanted to cry. They don't know that I have DID and if they did, I'm pretty sure they wouldn't have done that. But there is no way that I will ever tell them so I just sat in my office and let them carry on. I was too shocked to say anything about it.

I sure do hope I sleep tonight. It seems that the more I try to find a way to sleep better, the harder it is for me to sleep. Sleeping used to be my favorite activity, and if I could sleep it would still be my favorite activity.

I might possibly being going on date #3 tomorrow night. I guess we'll see what happens!


1 comment:

  1. One of my coworkers jokes that she has a split personality - the other coworkers will ask her if it's Good M or Mean M today when they come in. I wish it was so simple as Good/Bad Me. I just let it blow past me; they would never Get it.